Today, out of nowhere, I was let go from my part time job.
I knew I didn’t fit there, and I never felt like I would. Sometimes things don’t work out for some other purpose. My managers (who are really wonderful people), when they sat me down to tell me, began by saying something like: “You are doing a great job. You’re good at what you do, but you’re not outgoing enough.” I had no idea that was coming. I got sucker punched.
It doesn’t suck losing a job or a steady income (well, okay, maybe it does suck a little bit), but when they told me that I wasn’t outgoing enough, I took it personally. It made me think that I failed as a human being.
Luckily, I have a really great support system (Mom, Dad, Mark, Ethan, friends…thank you), who have already told me that they are proud of me and support me no matter what.
Right now, I’m pretty unsure about what I should do.
I feel like this is a door opening for me to focus more of my time and energy into photography–that’s what I want to do and that’s what I hope to do.
I’m hesitant because:
1) Ethan and I are about to get married. If I don’t have a steady income, then that could hurt us financially.
2) I don’t feel like I’m well known enough to quit any sort of part time job in order to go into photography full time, no matter how badly I want to.
3) I’m afraid to take the risk, even if it could pay off in the end.
What do you guys think?