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Bittersweet

Today, out of nowhere, I was let go from my part time job.
I knew I didn’t fit there, and I never felt like I would.  Sometimes things don’t work out for some other purpose.  My managers (who are really wonderful people), when they sat me down to tell me, began by saying something like: “You are doing a great job.  You’re good at what you do, but you’re not outgoing enough.”   I had no idea that was coming.  I got sucker punched.

It doesn’t suck losing a job or a steady income (well, okay, maybe it does suck a little bit), but when they told me that I wasn’t outgoing enough, I took it personally.  It made me think that I failed as a human being.

Luckily, I have a really great support system (Mom, Dad, Mark, Ethan, friends…thank you), who have already told me that they are proud of me and support me no matter what.

Right now, I’m pretty unsure about what I should do.

I feel like this is a door opening for me to focus more of my time and energy into photography–that’s what I want to do and that’s what I hope to do.

I’m hesitant because:
1) Ethan and I are about to get married.  If I don’t have a steady income, then that could hurt us financially.
2) I don’t feel like I’m well known enough to quit any sort of part time job in order to go into photography full time, no matter how badly I want to.
3) I’m afraid to take the risk, even if it could pay off in the end.

What do you guys think?

  • 1.8.13 - 8:32 am

    Sydney Greenwood - As a married woman, Ethan is your first priority. I am currently working a job I love & a second job I hate because we need it financially. I can’t wait until we are at a place where I can quit, but until that happens, I’ll have to stick it out. My advice would be that if you think you guys are at a place financially where photography & Ethan’s job are enough, go for it. If not, I wouldn’t. Your first year of marriage will have its struggles, but if you can avoid finances being one of them, you should.

    As for making that decision, have you talked to other full-time photographers about how they made the transition? I always assumed it was one of those things where they started making enough money that they no longer needed a second job, not necessarily something where they quit their job & then had more time for photography. But I could be totally backwards on that. I would talk to others who have made the transition, get their advice, & go from there.

    After that, I would pray about it. Hard. Then talk to Ethan. Then talk to your parents. & hopefully then you’ll have an answer. (:ReplyCancel

  • 1.8.13 - 4:07 pm

    Nicole Dorris - Rachel- I’m sorry to hear that. I think you can do whatever you put your mind to. However, I know that can be a scary thing (trust me we went through it), I’m always for having a back up plan…Maybe you can find a part time job that you enjoy doing, something along the lines of art and photography…Just a thought! Dary and I will be praying that you find what you want and that God blesses you every step of the way. I know you will flourish in whatever you decide to do!ReplyCancel